A long-time coming Comeback…

I haven’t written or shared much over the past 10 years. It felt like the part of me that enables me to share my stories got suspended. I felt stifled; there wasn’t much outpour of my creativity. I often wondered why, couldn’t even get the answer, so I let it go. I had to remind myself: “it will come when it will come,” and so eventually I forgot all about it. Up until recently, when I started reading some of the old stuff I have written and created in the past. Luckily, I was able to recover my site and the password.

Storytelling & sharing has always been a core of every community. It’s how we people connect to each other, how we pass on our experiences, knowledge, wisdom, how we learn from one another and show our support to fellow members of our community. Through music, stories, communal chores, songs, dance. I’d like to honor and continue that tradition in ways I can – through a written word.   

Over the past decade I have lived a quiet, secluded, inward focused life. Sure, I had to go to work, execute what was necessary in terms of daily chores. It just happens to be, that the main purpose of this particular period in my life was the pursuit of understanding of who I am. I dedicated most of my time and effort towards spiritual practice, meditation, journeying inwards.

In October 2021, my best buddy told me about Gabor Mate and his work on trauma. I started diving into all available online resources, signed up for the Wisdom in Trauma online course, and the course offered In February 2022 in Blue Spirit, Costa Rica. All that combined helped unleash the final few obstacles I didn’t even know I was being confined by.

Many of us can spend a life time struggling and pursuing various spiritual practices, hoping that’s the only way we can free ourselves. We try really hard, and it’s still not enough to break through, to live a more authentic, free-flowing, fulfilling life. For me, it just wasn’t enough and that’s because I never learned about my childhood trauma, the scars it has left on my cellular levels with all its consequences that play out it in life. Starting to learn about trauma, acknowledging my experiences, healing trauma, I am able to notice there’s been a series of small breakthroughs and that feels very liberating.

I’m glad more people are talking about trauma. It is becoming less of a stigma; people are realizing its impacts, becoming curious, less afraid to start exploring their childhood related traumatic experiences and how it might be manifesting in their daily lives. I see it as the beginning of a journey when we finally embrace all the shit we have stored, start healing ourselves, and finally letting go. Making this world a better place for us, the ones around us, the environment, and the generations to come.   

May this new chapter begin and may I be able to write and share stories that are of value to my dear fellow travelers.

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