Roller-Coaster Ride

Life can be quite a roller-coaster ride at times.
All the hormones and emotions that get stirred up, when we bump into someone can leave us feel quite unsettled. Sounds familiar?

I don’t have many secrets and I try to let go of unnecessary thoughts as fast as I can. I prefer to live with my heart, to flow, as much as possible. Of course I use my brilliant god given mind, I’d be a fool not to.

BUT!

To live is to live with our hearts. And to think is to think with our minds. 

Train wreck alert… beep, beep, beep

I’ve been saved by the grace before doing anything stupid I would later regret many, many times.

Ever done that, been there?

Consequences of any sudden decisions we make (non-life-threatening situations that is) fueled by charging hormones and rampant emotions can have substantial effects on our lives and the lives of those around us. Happens at work, in relationships, marriages, families, business affairs, and we all have certain share of responsibilities. Word of caution, be careful, and stay alert. Castles you took decades to build can vanish overnight.

Especially when you’re on the cusp of some pivotal breakthrough, nature will pull out all the tricks of her trade she has mastered to perfection, only to suck you right back into her perpetual game. But even nature is kind. Nature respects the wisdom of ages, abides by our free will. So, no worries, you’re fine. I’m fine.

I know that quite well; I have tasted her game.

Here’s an example. Imagine being a trader, managing a portfolio worth a few millions of dollars. Then one morning you get carried away, because you got into a pickle and became a bit of an emotional wreck the previous night. You fall out of the flow and puffff… wrong choice, most of it gone. In a split second. That stash can never come back. It might have taken you years to get there and it will take years to build it up from the scratch again, hoping you haven’t been totally squashed by guilt, disappointment, and most powerful of them all – mighty fear.  However hollow it may appear – in those situations, fear is as real, as real can be.

I’m glad I’ve always followed my heart, took a leap of faith and had a few light-hearted butt crazy adventures in life, before I was ready to take on more responsibilities with stronger ripple effects. I would never have learned a lesson have I not been a bit crazy.

That’s only because I trusted my heart, I trusted life. Some may disagree, perceive a few things I’ve done to be slightly irresponsible and foolish. That’s true as well. At the same time, it was an important and empowering lesson. Without them, I wouldn’t have learned and realized what I have. All past, present and future adventures are part of my journey and help me regain my clarity, trust, and strengthen my courage.

I could say so much more, but I have to brace myself at times. It can easily become too much. Sometimes less is more. And just because I can, it doesn’t mean I have to. I have a choice. And that’s a great place to be.